Letter to Grandpa

on Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Dear Kakek,

First of all i want to say i miss you that bad. How are you up there? Did you had a good time? I wish you were here now Kek.. I kept wanting you in my dreams. Wondering what would happen if you still be here with us. I'm guessing you'll be the most excited man right now...

Kek, i'm getting married soon.. I bet you always imagining this moment to come since i was childhood. Are you thrilled hearing this? Hehe... If you are still here, i want you to be my best man.. No one suitable more than you did. And i will be the happiest bride with you on my side..

Kek, i am still thinking why you leave me that fast? It was too soon.. You even do not have a chance to see me graduates from college. Aren't you the one who always wanting to see me go to college and picking me up after class? It will be fun! I will ask you to buy me an ice cream each time you come over. Oh, oh, or maybe i will ask you to accompanying me shopping around the mall? Sounds fun, right? Or you will sneaking over my boyfriend and i will protest when you did.. :) Oh Kek, things would be very different if you still around... You always backing me up and i wouldn't felt this lonely...

Kek, growing up was extremely hard for me.. Most of times, i feel so lonely and weak. Feels like i am solitaire and nobody will protecting me. It was creepy... When i made a mistake, nobody hold me and says "it's okay, do not scared. We will find anything to fix this". In contrary, they are blaming, pointing finger on me, yelling, offend and striking me.. Kek, i need you to support me. I know you always have faith on me and trusting me.

Maybe you will think why i felt like this when i am almost getting married, right? Why i am not telling you how much i want this to happen and how happy i am? Kek, i am tremendously happy... So happy to have him on my side.. He was so gentle, responsible, brave, and warm man. You will love him like your own grand son if you had a chance to meet him.. :) Still, no relationship is perfect. We have to struggle to fight for what we have right now. Sometimes thing gets harder and we arguing. But he is the one for me, no matter what.. Aaandd it was another story, now i just want to talk to you as your grand child that miss her grandpa so bad while she's one step away to a marriage. :) Kek, bless us to have a wonderful life ahead, under the holy vow. Bless us to be happy and completing each other's. I know maybe i am not the greatest grand daughter for you, but you are my best man.. Your blessing means everything to me..

Kek, i will write you another letter.. Do not forget to attend my wedding Kek. Be anywhere you like, i will waiting for your presence. :)


Your  grand daughter,

           Vicky


- Iki dan Kakek Said -

A Ring & A Bouquet

on Friday, June 22, 2012
For the rest of my life, receiving gifts from a boy doesn't make any major changes on the way i looked up that person. Chocolates, flowers, clothes, etc, all of it just a one-time mood booster... Happy? Yes of course. But changing the way i live? No can do.

Things gets different when you grow up... When its not about "gifts", its about "whose the one that giving you the gifts". A man.  

A man who give you a ring in front of your parent and his parent.. A ring that his mother put on by herself to your finger. It isn't about the "gift" again, right? It was a one step closer to the next level of commitment. Our whole life commitment...

Now i am no longer a free girl who able to run, jump, cry, disappear and doing what ever i like.. I am a woman who has a man hugging her by his commitment and mark he gave to her.. A ring. A woman that faced a lot of trouble, obstacles, hard time and cries for keeping her faith, a faith for holding on to a man. I am no longer having my own self, he owns me.. :) 

- The Engagement Day, 27th May 2012 -

How many times a woman got a beautiful bouquet from her man? Hundred times? Me? It my first time got a bouquet from my man (not my boyfriend, okay? Different level i guess xD).
I know, maybe, the major reason he gave me the bouquet because we will held a video shooting for our wedding invitation in the next day. Haha... But still, he said that he wants to buy this for me... He is my man and he wants me to have this beautiful bouquet... I am feeling lucky... I am feeling grateful... I am feeling owned... 
Until the wedding day comes, then i will be fully owned by him.. :) 


- Wedding Invitation Video Shoot Session, 17th June 2010 -

"A simple grateful thought turned heavenwards 

is the most perfect prayer." - Doris Lessing -








Runaway Bride

on Thursday, April 19, 2012
 I am profoundly and irreversibly screwed up... Yes right, i need a Plan B...

!!!!

on Wednesday, April 11, 2012
GET ME THE HELL OUT OF HERE!!!!! WAARRGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! 

Jet - Get Me Outta Here

What if...

on Tuesday, April 10, 2012
"What if i don't reply your wall that time? Could it be still 'us'? 
Or strangers that never know about each other and happily living our own life?"

Red String of Fate

Rapidly Changed

on Thursday, April 5, 2012
Woaa, its been awhile since my last writing.. Er, not just "awhile" i guess, since its been couple months passed. Looking back to my last blog post, things are changed rapidly in my world seems. Last post talking about a heart disappointment yet a cheesy emotions added in it. In that time, every minor problem feels like a BIG one and disturbing me that much. Its easy for me to break down and cry for lame reasons. Now, look at me now! I am made by trouble! Why? let me tell you why...

First of all, i have been healed from my heart-break-era. I made myself survived from what we called as a never-ending-suffer-and-torches. Got strong enough to simply smile to the world and laughing with all my dearest pals without feeling any pain at all. Except, getting madly in crush with a very good looking guy who never pick me as his girlfriend sadly. Haha. But its okay, we'd be friends in a weird yet exciting way until now. Plus, i had soooo much fun with my pals! So it ain't bother me that much... :))

The second. In a short time, things changed again, i got caught on another game. At first, its merely a joke and a challenge that one guy throw at me. We decided to be more than just a friend just to find out if things will works on us, a relationship. I think its fun, since there is no consequences behind it. But, in fact, i get it wrong. It was never be a fun game. It was full with tension, arguments, debating, and tears. Until several month, i found myself fell in love again. A thing that i have been avoiding based on my last awful experience. I fell in love.

Who is the object? Yep, he was an unknown guy appears from unknown place called social media. Cheesy isn't it? I bet you feel so. He brings out a thought i have never imagine before (at least at the time acting like an antipathy one), a serious relationship with consequences and lots of responsibilities in it. Me, admitting i was never agreed in an easy way, lots of argument spills out from my stubborn head. He? Did the same thing, throwing all the ego to me for at least understand his position at the time. Hard. Been very hard.

The third. We ended up having a very deep feeling and compassion to each other. Both are matched and bounded tightly. And there he goes.... the  proposal. At a mall's parking lot. At a very sudden time. At a very unexpected condition...

An insane game we'd agreed turn into a more-than-serious-problem... A major trouble we have to solve, which also brings out family problem as well. Interconnected at the same time. The responsibilities we have to carry on our shoulder.. If you asked me about did i ever imagine facing a problem like this before, i would say you are crazy. How on earth i am willingly stepping on a total disaster like that? I am not having such a brave heart to do so. But, look at me now... That is why i am thinking i was made by trouble.

I won't tell the further story right now.. Since now the process was still on going. I won't hope too much. I just want the best thing will happen to us.

An antipathy girl met an alien guy.

Will we'd be united under the holy vow? For forever?

To be continued then....

"Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact."
-Willian James-
 

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